Hi, my name is Dylan, I’m the person who writes Noodles and Beef dot com, and this is my goodbye video!
I started this blog 15-years-ago to gain a better appreciation of my life by writing openly and frequently. Its been an incredible creative outlet, great way to make friends, and–perhaps most rewarding–there are people out there who have benefitted from my writing about poly, BDSM, and other challenging social subjects. Which I think is really awesome…I’m not exactly an expert, so thats pretty cool.
This has worked pretty well for the last 12-or-so-years, when I had about 10 readers on Livejournal. But now I’ve got 2.2 million readers and the audience/creator dynamic is very different.
As my audience has grown I’ve started to attract some bad actors who attack my life under the veil of cowardly anonymity. I’ve been able to ignore them for the most part, but over the last year the hateful messages have taken on a disturbing racist rhetoric and sometime they contain veiled death threats. Which is scary and unacceptable.
This isn’t fun for me anymore. This hasn’t been fun for a while. I only see it trending worse.
I feel like my only option is to close the blog down.
I’ve had a really good run. 15-years, yay! Its gotten so bad that I’m relieved to have the option to close it down. This is a good stopping point. My journey in San Francisco is coming to an end, got a new job, moving my pups up north.
I feel like the time I spend on my blog fielding “blog stuff” can be better spent on other creative projects.
Thank you everyone for reading, I really appreciate it.
My friend Gpup Alpha (of the famous Sirius pup pack) invited tank and I for interviews. I’m happy to contribute to his project, but video is not my format so I apologize for my awkwardness. I prefer photos and writing because it gives me time to compose myself and be more articulate.
For big pup’s Christmas present, I enrolled him in a two-month-long beginning improv class. The goal of which was to help him think on his feet and train the creative muscle.
I wasn’t sure I’d be getting anything out of it besides more intimate time with big pup, but tonight’s class was… Challenging.
We were doing two minute scenes, starts with one character in a position of high status, another in low status. At the one minute mark we trade statuses.
My feedback has been that I’m unable to be low status. Even in portraying a passive role, I come off as too aggressive. (I think they might be conflating power with status).
New scene. The high status character was my dad, he opened with being disappointed in his son for not joining the football team. I responded by wheeling myself closer, pantomiming a wheelchair. I thought this would make me low status–the crippled child–but instead it put me in the high class position. Hmm.
Second attempt (video above) I tried more passive body language until the inflection time. Probably did too much passive wiggling.
Sorry in advanced to anyone who has acting experience. I’m an amateur.