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Submission from Stephen:Belated Happy Birthday, Baby Bull [a Grandpa Bull (the 24th) can say that Dylan] … so here’s a Memory Monday … I snapped this years ago when I first saw you at Dore Alley 
Wow. Thank you for this…I was so skinny back then, It’s good remembering how far I’ve come.
Submission from Stephen:

Belated Happy Birthday, Baby Bull [a Grandpa Bull (the 24th) can say that Dylan] … so here’s a Memory Monday … I snapped this years ago when I first saw you at Dore Alley

Wow. Thank you for this…I was so skinny back then, It’s good remembering how far I’ve come.
Top row: me at 230lbs a couple years back.
Bottom row: me at 230lbs now.
This is the first time I’ve been 230lbs in over two years, and I’m freaking out a little because I think I’m not making progress.  Its important to compare myself at 230lbs then versus now.
Arms are +1.5” larger
Chest is +½” larger
Thighs and butt are +½” larger
Shoulders are +5” broader (this is a weird measurement because growth in my upper back and chest can skew accuracy)
But, most importantly, my midsection is -8” smaller
I might be the same weight, but my midsection is much smaller.  This means my overall bodyfat is lower, hence why I’m more defined.  
I was freaking out because I feel like I haven’t made much progress in two years (like my arms are barely bigger), but I am much leaner.  That means I probably experienced a lot of muscle growth, but because of the fat loss, its harder to measure.  All I know is I’m more defined and my proportions are better.

Top row: me at 230lbs a couple years back.

Bottom row: me at 230lbs now.

This is the first time I’ve been 230lbs in over two years, and I’m freaking out a little because I think I’m not making progress.  Its important to compare myself at 230lbs then versus now.

  • Arms are +1.5” larger
  • Chest is +½” larger
  • Thighs and butt are +½” larger
  • Shoulders are +5” broader (this is a weird measurement because growth in my upper back and chest can skew accuracy)
  • But, most importantly, my midsection is -8” smaller

I might be the same weight, but my midsection is much smaller.  This means my overall bodyfat is lower, hence why I’m more defined.  

I was freaking out because I feel like I haven’t made much progress in two years (like my arms are barely bigger), but I am much leaner.  That means I probably experienced a lot of muscle growth, but because of the fat loss, its harder to measure.  All I know is I’m more defined and my proportions are better.

Progress update: 230lbs

I haven’t been this small in over two years.  Eek…

My waist is down 2-inches, but I don’t feel much more defined.

Not sure how much more cutting (read: emotional anguish) I can endure.  Might start bulking next month.

240lbs progress update: 

  • Arms stuck at 19”
  • Chest slightly bigger to 50.5”
  • Thighs down to 26.5”
  • Butt up to 45”
  • Nothing else changed

Sigh.

Lack of progress is frustrating.

2005 ~120lbs versus 2013 ~260lbs

I’m having a “small day” today because I haven’t been having much progress in the gym.  Reminding myself where I started helps keep things in perspective.

Well.  This is depressing.
Nearly one year without any improvement.  My thighs even shrank (probably because I don’t ride my bike anymore).
I also lost 4-inches from my midsection.  While I didn’t improve on any measurements, I was able to lose fat without losing any size.
Hopefully next year will yield better results…

Well.  This is depressing.

Nearly one year without any improvement.  My thighs even shrank (probably because I don’t ride my bike anymore).

I also lost 4-inches from my midsection.  While I didn’t improve on any measurements, I was able to lose fat without losing any size.

Hopefully next year will yield better results…

Today was a good day!
I was getting super depressed post-surgery because I thought I had lost a ton of weight/size from being away from the gym.  (Doc says I can’t workout for two-four weeks).  Had my first successful workout post-surgery today.  Hurray!  Previous attempts were met with shooting pain that necessitated my use of pain killers.  But not today!
And then I took my measurements!  I’ve actually stayed about the same weight, same size, nothing shrank…except my arms, which are down an inch, but that might be because I haven’t worked out in a while.
Anyway.  Phew.  Measurements keep me from going crazy.  My mind plays tricks on me when I look at my reflection; I think I’ve suddenly become flabby and skinny after a break from the gym…but nothing has changed.
Also I start bulking today.  Going to try and get my arms back up an inch in time for Folsom.

Today was a good day!

I was getting super depressed post-surgery because I thought I had lost a ton of weight/size from being away from the gym.  (Doc says I can’t workout for two-four weeks).  Had my first successful workout post-surgery today.  Hurray!  Previous attempts were met with shooting pain that necessitated my use of pain killers.  But not today!

And then I took my measurements!  I’ve actually stayed about the same weight, same size, nothing shrank…except my arms, which are down an inch, but that might be because I haven’t worked out in a while.

Anyway.  Phew.  Measurements keep me from going crazy.  My mind plays tricks on me when I look at my reflection; I think I’ve suddenly become flabby and skinny after a break from the gym…but nothing has changed.

Also I start bulking today.  Going to try and get my arms back up an inch in time for Folsom.

Another year at Dore Alley, another photo for my progress montage.
Current Stats:
Arms: 19” (+1” from last year)
Chest: 50”
Thighs: 28”
Rump: 45” (+2” from last year)
Calves: 18.5” (+.5” from last year)
Neck: 20” (+1” from last year)
Forearms: 14.5”
I have been cutting…so I’m not the biggest I’ve been this year, but I’m more defined, and it certainly makes me look bigger.  And I feel better about myself.

Another year at Dore Alley, another photo for my progress montage.

Current Stats:

  • Arms: 19” (+1” from last year)
  • Chest: 50”
  • Thighs: 28”
  • Rump: 45” (+2” from last year)
  • Calves: 18.5” (+.5” from last year)
  • Neck: 20” (+1” from last year)
  • Forearms: 14.5”

I have been cutting…so I’m not the biggest I’ve been this year, but I’m more defined, and it certainly makes me look bigger.  And I feel better about myself.

Excerpt from my Quora response to the question “What is everyday life like for a bodybuilder with huge muscles?”

I’m a hobbyist bodybuilder, and while I don’t consider myself very large (please see: What does it feel like to have Body Dysmorphic Disorder?), thats how most people describe me.  I started bodybuilding at 140lbs and have been as big as 260lbs
[ … ]
I always opt for the disabled person stall.  Going into anything smaller is like funneling a bull into a kennel.  My shoulders graze the stall walls, I turn to sit and my thighs fight for room with the toilet paper dispenser; the ordeal leaves me winded and frustrated.
Airplane seats are no better.  Not that I’ve ever heard anyone say they enjoy sitting in an airplane seat, but watching the pained expressions of people as I explain I’m sitting beside them.  Thats rough.  I might as well be telling them we’re sharing a seat for a trans-continental flight.  I tuck my arms in and try to make myself as small as possible, not because I want to, but I sympathize with the other passengers. Nobody wants my arm taking up both arm rests and half their seat.

Read the full response on Quora here.

Excerpt from my Quora response to the question “What is everyday life like for a bodybuilder with huge muscles?”

I’m a hobbyist bodybuilder, and while I don’t consider myself very large (please see: What does it feel like to have Body Dysmorphic Disorder?), thats how most people describe me.  I started bodybuilding at 140lbs and have been as big as 260lbs

[ … ]

I always opt for the disabled person stall.  Going into anything smaller is like funneling a bull into a kennel.  My shoulders graze the stall walls, I turn to sit and my thighs fight for room with the toilet paper dispenser; the ordeal leaves me winded and frustrated.

Airplane seats are no better.  Not that I’ve ever heard anyone say they enjoy sitting in an airplane seat, but watching the pained expressions of people as I explain I’m sitting beside them.  Thats rough.  I might as well be telling them we’re sharing a seat for a trans-continental flight.  I tuck my arms in and try to make myself as small as possible, not because I want to, but I sympathize with the other passengers. Nobody wants my arm taking up both arm rests and half their seat.

Read the full response on Quora here.

66/365 Week 4 of Cutting
Compared to my first week of cutting, there is not much visual difference. The fat loss is much slower than I was hoping for; I’ve lost 5lbs more of fat and gained a little more muscle (my rump is an inch bigger), but nothing too noticeable.
 Nevertheless, with this new cutting regimen I’ve actually improved on some measurements *while* losing fat, so maybe I should just stick with it a little longer. Usually I have a BDD freakout after I lose too much weight because all my measurements are dwindling smaller, but I haven’t had nearly as much body anxiety with this new regimen. Just two more weeks till I start bulking.  Hang in there, me!

66/365 Week 4 of Cutting

Compared to my first week of cutting, there is not much visual difference. The fat loss is much slower than I was hoping for; I’ve lost 5lbs more of fat and gained a little more muscle (my rump is an inch bigger), but nothing too noticeable.


Nevertheless, with this new cutting regimen I’ve actually improved on some measurements *while* losing fat, so maybe I should just stick with it a little longer. Usually I have a BDD freakout after I lose too much weight because all my measurements are dwindling smaller, but I haven’t had nearly as much body anxiety with this new regimen.

Just two more weeks till I start bulking.  Hang in there, me!

41/365 Week 1 of cutting on Flickr.Pup and I have been cutting for a little over a week (okay, 16 days for me).
I’ve lost about 15lbs of fat, and about half an inch on all my measurements, however my chest has grown +2.5” to an all-time large of 52.5”.
I’m doing a whole new diet (carb restrictive) and workout regime (negative reps to failure)…the results thus far have been surprisingly exceptional.  Even pup has lost ~15lbs, while improving on a couple of his measurements.

41/365 Week 1 of cutting on Flickr.

Pup and I have been cutting for a little over a week (okay, 16 days for me).

I’ve lost about 15lbs of fat, and about half an inch on all my measurements, however my chest has grown +2.5” to an all-time large of 52.5”.

I’m doing a whole new diet (carb restrictive) and workout regime (negative reps to failure)…the results thus far have been surprisingly exceptional. Even pup has lost ~15lbs, while improving on a couple of his measurements.

End of year weigh in: 260lbs

Okay, I’m rounding up a little bit.  I’m actually only 258lbs.

While I’m still gaining weight, a lot of it recently seems to be fat.  I’ve certainly gone up a pant size, and my love handles are back (when my arms are down).

  • Biceps: 19”
  • Chest: 50”
  • Thighs: 29”
  • Rump: 45”
  • Calves: 19”
  • Neck: 20.5”
  • Forearms: 15”

Dan has requested I bulk for another month, see if I can get to 270lbs (doubt it)…so I’m pushing my cutting/trimming/not-worry-about-eating-10,000-calories-each-day phase to February.

I hit 255lbs this week!
This photo, taken by my trainer James, was on our final session.  I had bought a bunch of sessions with him when I had money, but, sadly, can’t afford to continue for a while.
While I’ve made tremendous progress on my own for years, I had certainly plateaued and was not pushing myself as hard as I needed in order to grow.  I attribute a lot of my gains (particularly getting to 19-inch arms) to James’ guidance in the gym.
If you’re in San Francisco and want an awesome trainer, James is finally taking new clients again.

I hit 255lbs this week!

This photo, taken by my trainer James, was on our final session.  I had bought a bunch of sessions with him when I had money, but, sadly, can’t afford to continue for a while.

While I’ve made tremendous progress on my own for years, I had certainly plateaued and was not pushing myself as hard as I needed in order to grow.  I attribute a lot of my gains (particularly getting to 19-inch arms) to James’ guidance in the gym.

If you’re in San Francisco and want an awesome trainer, James is finally taking new clients again.


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